Its been a year

I had  been thinking about my blog lately and just going back to see it reminded me how much I missed it. Having a blog has always been scary for me ... My writing sucks and I know this.But I wanted to share all these amazing life changes I've gone threw.Or just talk to someone that say's hey I just went threw that.

Well Violet is 16 months to the day and she's the most special little girl

She loves to eat and sing and dance.Loves here Ama and ampa and jumps with joy every time her papa comes home from work.

As for me I'm completely out of my mind with shopping for her everyday if I can buy her something I do, even if its on online a new bow or she needs shoes. I've noticed the shopping never really ends when you have kids.

As for me personally well lets say... my fashion isn't much to talk about lately I'm really into jeans and cardigans right now and flats wow how things have changed. I do however style  my hair  and make up and all that good stuff ha ha ah

But since Violet is walking by the end of the day I look like a bus hit me ha ha ha


I just got Violets Instagram up and going that I also stopped posting for some reason I think I just wanted to enjoy Violet small there's so much competation on instagram and lets face it we all think our kids are just the cutest thing in this world so now that her outfits are so much better since she is standing and walking we are back on the instagram baby world.

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So join for the ride tell me what you would like to talk about I'm open for some mommy talk email me candyovalle@yahoo.com

Cry baby ~~~

I admit I've became a huge cry baby since having my daughter. And there's no shame here,my daughter received her 4 month shots yesterday and after a week of her having her first actual cold and her first time of having a fever let me just say this week was for me a big cry baby week.

I actually felt like I was running without running shoes or sleeping with my eyes open. From feeling sad,scared to hopeless all these emtions went threw my body. That today my body actually ached threw all the stress I put myself threw. 

And really you make your own situation good or bad stress or stress free 

I decided to go run myself to the ground. I was so stress out but I should have just breathed and know everything was going to be ok its JUST a cold ... I kept on telling myself and it really was. I went to the doctor bought everything I could to relieve my daughter from any pain she might have been feeling. And to top it off her shots that was the last string,her pain brought me to the top and I was a pile of tears.

With her cries I cried with her, it was so sad to see her little body go threw so much it broke my heart ...

I never imagined being a mom brought so many feeling. But it does makes you want to be a better you a super women 

a super mom but all I can give is the best version of myself.I will never for second  be any less then the best mom you can have Violet. 

What is Cradle Cap

As a new mother you experience so many new things so fast you have be ready for the unexpected.My new born was getting this flakey dry sudstence on her head after the thrid week of her being in this world. It would run from her head to her forehead,it was driving me nuts.Her second doctors appointment her doctor confirmed that she had cradle cap. Now what is CRADLE CAP  as a mother desperate to seek more information I did my research.Google and I have develpoed a one on one relationship as a mom I look up everything.

So here's what the internet said

from Babycenter.com 

f your baby's scalp has flaky, dry skin that looks like dandruff, or thick, oily, yellowish or brown scaling or crusting patches, it's probably cradle cap. Doctors call it infantile seborrheic dermatitis, and it's very common. 

Cradle cap isn't cute, but it's harmless. It shows up most often in the first few months of life and  usually clears up on its own in about six to 12 months – although some children have it for longer.

You might notice the same condition around your baby's ears or eyebrows, on his eyelids, or even in his armpits and other creases.

SO the good thing it was harmless but the bad thing that it wasn't cute ...

So I was set on a mission to clear my daughter from this Cradle cap the Doc advised me to use extra virgin oilve oil with  a thin brush to brush it out. So I bought a olive oil from trader joe's that would be organic and went to baby R us and purchased a treament for cradle cap. To my surprise there wasn't that much to chose from so I went with little remedies lotion for cradle cap you can find it  cradle cap lotion  

looks like this 

I used both the olive oil and the lotion every other day for to much use to errtate the skin.There has been a huge improvement  but as soon as you feel confident about it being gone BAM it there again . Only time can take Cradle cap away but don't give up this daily olive oil and cream cleaning.

Being a mom doesn't mean your going to know everything it's a learning process. So stay clam and take it one day at a time . 

Stay tune for my next experiance with my sweet baby Violet Ruby, talk to you soon take care 

xoxo
  

A moment that changed my life

     I had been wanting to post about my labor experience,not that I will ever forget howI felt the moment when I feel in love at first sight the moment that I would give my life for this precious little girl named Violet Ruby. It was a Monday morning and as I got ready for my 8am doctor appointment I noticed a rare star pattern in my eye sight. As the prior weeks I had been back and fourth from the hospital with high blood pressure I knew this wasn't a good sign. The only thing I knew was that I was 38 weeks and I was considered full term. That my Violet would be safe for delivery.

After having a perfect pregnancy at 35 week I had extreme swollen feet that then continued to my face down to my hands, then I encountered high blood pressure at every doctor visit, which lead to me going to the hospital every time and getting hooked up to machine to check the baby heart rate and my pressure every 15 minutes, and tube after tube of blood test. I remember my first scare I was freaking out I didn't know I was going to be OK but my faith made me strong. Not to say I had my mother by my side this whole time I knew she was scared  but she stayed strong for both of us. She always reassured  me everything was going to be fine,and I always believed her. 

Well this hospital routine continued for 3 weeks and every week I was in and out of the doctor 3 to 4 times. I was being looked at closely all due to this high blood pressure that came out of no where. I was  so overwhelmed I just wanted everything to be fine I thought and prayed that I had made it so far why was this happening now...

But the day came no more blood test no more scares I got induced on Oct 28 at 3:00pm it was time it was really happening, I knew that no matter what I was going to meet my daughter. I texted my husband "babe its time to meet our daughter get over here as soon as you can " he was also on edge with everything that had been going on. But today was no false alarm it was time.

My husband arrived shortly after I had never been so happy to see him .Then  my dad, my mom, my sister in law and a good friend of mine also arrived, I had a full room of people. The pain was getting more and more intense, the contractions where hitting hard as I watched the monitor. At 11:00pm I knew it was time to get the epidural, this was my birth plan pain medicine, I wasn't about to get all crazy and go natural oh no not me I was the epidural expert. Well it sure made the pain easier but I noticed I still felt the contractions  and I was pushing that remote they gave me. I was for sure getting worried this wasn't happening epidural was my ticket to a easy delivery why was this happening. Well it didn't get better oh no it got worse and it hit me hard in a matter of 3 hours I was dilated 9 cm

Everyone had left and the only ones still there was my mother and my husband. We had discussed that he wasn't going to be in the delivery room so when all the nurses came in with this intense delivery table and some how the bed I was laying on was transforming to the delivery bed. I looked at my husband worried eyes and I told him "babe we'll see you in bit go outside someone will call you ok, I love you"It was a sad good bye I didn't want him to leave but he had to because what I went through after he left there's no words to define the feeling that over took my body to deliver my baby. The epidural didn't work I felt EVERYTHING the pain was so extreme I felt as I had a out of body experience the nurses screamed one more push but I felt that I just couldn't. But through the insanity I heard my mom say to me "mija you can do it " and she was crying. So through all the pain I found the strength and give those last pushes that I needed. 

I opened my eyes and saw my daughter for the first time the doctor was holding her feet up he then gave her that shake and she cried.That moment all the emotion I had ever felt in my life rushed through my body and I cried like I had never cried before. As the nurses assisted her I asked my mom "how is she " and she reassured me that she was beautiful. That was enough for me to know that she was well and heathy.

I kept asking the nurse to call my husband I needed him in there, our daughter was here !!! at last my mother went for him.And at that moment we become a family we where now three. Violet was placed in my arms and she was having a huge conversation with me she was just looking at me saying only God knows.But it was a special moment that I shared with her at that moment I become a mother.

As they say nothing that comes easy is worth having. my daughter has filled me with so much hope love and faith she's our miracle baby. 

This blog will be my journey threw mother hood. Hope to review and meet mom like myself that feel like your doing everything wrong but at the same time your doing everything right. 

thank you for stopping by don't forget to follow!!! 

xoxo

Violet's mom