Monday, March 24, 2014

Seasons are changing

The weather is changing the days are getting longer. Since you came into my life nothing has ever felt so right.Your becoming a big girl right in front of my eyes you no longer need my arms around you all the time. Your getting stronger everyday before I know it you will be sitting with no extra pillows. You started your solid food and mornings have a whole new meaning. Getting up to make you breakfast is the highlight to my day.Your little toes don't hit the bottom of your hair chair or your walker but they will.
Now your holding a zippy cup what a surprise, my trips to the store isn't make up anymore its Gerber and apple Juice you love your Bananas in the morning and your carrots in the afternoon.
My Violet seeing you grow enjoying every mintute I wouldn't change it for the world.   

Who was I before you ... but who I am now I wouldn't
 change it for anything  because I'm your mommy 

Love you my violet 

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Cry baby ~~~

I admit I've became a huge cry baby since having my daughter. And there's no shame here,my daughter received her 4 month shots yesterday and after a week of her having her first actual cold and her first time of having a fever let me just say this week was for me a big cry baby week.
I actually felt like I was running without running shoes or sleeping with my eyes open. From feeling sad,scared to hopeless all these emtions went threw my body. That today my body actually ached threw all the stress I put myself threw. 
And really you make your own situation good or bad stress or stress free 
I decided to go run myself to the ground. I was so stress out but I should have just breathed and know everything was going to be ok its JUST a cold ... I kept on telling myself and it really was. I went to the doctor bought everything I could to relieve my daughter from any pain she might have been feeling. And to top it off her shots that was the last string,her pain brought me to the top and I was a pile of tears.
With her cries I cried with her, it was so sad to see her little body go threw so much it broke my heart ...
I never imagined being a mom brought so many feeling. But it does makes you want to be a better you a super women 
a super mom but all I can give is the best version of myself.I will never for second  be any less then the best mom you can have Violet.